I'm a mascot for what you've become, I love the mayhem more than the love.

If I'm wrong, I'm sorry. But I think I'm right this time.

last year's wishes are this year's apologies

As cliche as it sounds, I've been going over the idea of New Year's Resolutions, especially the half-hearted ones of the past. I think what strikes me most about them is this idea that the new year is a new start with new beginnings and all sorts of newness. Waking up today, I see that none of my problems or circumstances have changed at all. Today is exactly the same as yesterday, this year the same as last year. At least, thats the way it looks from a physical perspective. Wouldn't it be wonderful if there was some sort of reset button so that when the clock chimed midnight for 2009 all the mistakes and troubles of the last year were just erased? It's easy to think that things would be so much better that way, but you know, really, that wouldn't be any help at all. As much as I want to erase certain things and individuals from my past, I would be erasing the lessons learned at the same time. At least this way, I know what mistakes to avoid this time around, which I suppose is the point of New Year's Resolutions and newness in general. Last night, about an hour after the new year was born, I allowed myself to feel more frustration than I've been letting myself feel towards someone who used to be one of my best friends. I think that was the breaking point for this idea that nothing really changes as the year passes, except for our attitudes and actions. My feelings (good and bad) hadn't and won't change that easily, and that person's treating me like I don't exist anymore won't just automatically change either. People have to choose to change. We've got to be better than the petty arguments and grudges we allow to change us. I want to be better and to continually learn to be a better friend and I hope all my wonderful friends will hold me accountable for that. Thats what I want from newness.

Crayons can melt on us for all I care

The most difficult thing for me to learn in a very long time has been patience. I need to do things, to be active. I've never been content to just sit back and let things happen, but in my need to be in control of things I often overcompensate and make a bigger mess than likely would have happened on its own. But, I'm learning. Every day I get a little bit better at not doing things and instead letting them unfold however they will. Things will turn out the right way, in time, if I just wait.

I don't love you.

This video is beautiful.

Vote 4 Arthas. KEK.

This just made my day. Bathroom stall literature is almost always a fascinating read, but what I saw today just outshone everything previously encountered. Amidst all the anti-Palin rhetoric was scrawled "Wrath of the Lich King > Everything else." The fact that I saw it today, of all days, just adds to the amazing-ness. The excitement builds.

Edit: Humanities, Second Floor Men's Bathroom.

Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.

Today, well tonight, after class, I went straight to the bookstore to pick up Gregory Maguire's third book in The Wicked Years (Wicked, Son of a Witch); A Lion Among Men. I've only read about thirty pages so far, but it has been an amazing thirty pages. His books motivate me to tell stories, but at the same time make writing feel so very out of my league. Maguire's ability to take a children's story and create a massive world teeming with political turmoil is just mind-boggling. Unless George R.R. Martin's A Dance of Dragons magically releases this year, this will be the best book I will read all year.

I've known for some time that I'd be getting a MacBook at the end of the semester, but today it got even better. Apple introduced the brand new MacBook today and it is completely amazing. Better than the current model in every way, it's also aesthetically improved. The darn thing is gorgeous. Besides the fact that it will give me access to better programs to use as teaching tools, I can't wait to play WoW on a system that can actually handle the game.

Speaking of WoW, today is also the big pre-WotLK patch, which means massive failure. The servers have been up and down all day, so I have been unable to try out all the cool new features. As excited as I am about going full Protection (and still being able to do damage!), I'm mostly wanting to be able to log in and check out the Barbershop feature. Gnome with a Mohawk? That's a resounding yes. Alas, it'll have to wait until tomorrow. BRC.

I'm an addict for dramatics, I confuse the two for love

Last year, today was better.